I'm a people-person. I find it fulfilling if I can inspire just one person. I believe in miracles; the birth of Nathan is proof. I truly enjoy love and never take even the small things for granted. It's the miracle of life that is humbling. On the other end of the spectrum, when Tom passed away before my very eyes, and over this time, reflecting on our life together, and his last month of life, as much as it hurts not having him here, his moment of rebirth was beautiful in it's own way; peaceful.
Life, as I knew it, will never be the same. It's like... you know who you are, then you meet your soul mate. Your lives together become one life. When a part of you isn't here, physically, anymore, there is a feeling of being lost. I have Nathan, our miracle, he carries me a lot, more than he'll ever know, but I still have to find that other part of me again, on my own. It will not be the same me before Tom came into my life, it will be a different me, with Nathan by my side.
Love you, buddy, thanks for being the little dude that you are. You are so much like your daddy, and I love every single last drop of your little self. My precious baby, miracle.
2 comments:
You simply amaze me, you should write a book... your thoughts and expressions are so real. What I can say is you are such a strong person and have so much faith, you inspire me! With all you have gone through and you talk about it all the time. Although we are not "close" friends, I have always admired your love for Tom everything you have had and still do have, Nathan! You are a wonderful person......... I hope to see you soon!! love you lots...
To simply put it, YOU ARE AMAZING. I love your faith and I love the love you have to give. Although things do not seem clear right now I have faith that they will become clear for you. Just be yourself and handle things the way you would if he were here. We all know that even if our loves are gone they are always a whisper inside our heads and hearts. My husband is not gone from this world simply gone to Iraq. It's not easy to just move on with life when such a vital part is missing. I admire you for being so strong where I sometimes am so weak. I wish that we were close friends so I could be right there along with you through this journey. I would help you and Nathan in any way I could. So for me, thank that wonderful support system you have because they are now a vital part of both of your lives.
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